It seems that you woke up deciding you didn’t want to listen to anything I had to say.  Neither of us budged and stuck to our grounds.  You didn’t want to listen and I was persistent in wanting you to listen.  As frustrated as I was with you, I realize it’s ok for you to act the way you did.  You are five years old and are testing your limits, your boundaries.  You want to see what rules you can break and get away with.  And that is absolutely fine.  My job as a mother is to realize that you are not intentionally trying make me upset but rather acknowledge that you are learning what you can and cannot do.

It was a hard day. I may have raised my voice out of frustration when instead I should have just stepped away.  You being my first child, I too am learning.  You too one day will have children of your own so remember days like this will occur, so just keep your cool.  Remember Allah and all you have to be grateful for and before you know it tranquility will occur

As the day came to an end, I Iooked forward to lay in bed and before I knew it tears rolled down my cheeks.  I blamed myself for the imbalance in the day. I was upset and worried why you didn’t listen to me that day and again thought to myself that maybe I had done something wrong.  Was it my parenting that made you act the way you did?  Of course it was not, but emotion took me over and I couldn’t help but feel an ache in my heart.  Subhanallah, Allah has put so much mercy in a mother’s heart that even though I felt hurt from your disobedience the last thing that came out of my mouth was a precious dua for my little sweetheart.

Love you forever,

Momma